Reinado de los Codiciosos

Here are my compiled daily thoughts on the PAL outsourcing plan. You may say it's biased because I'm a son, sibling and nephew of PAL employees but taking those facts out, i would still stand by this because i believe in the karma principle. so PAL, what goes around comes around. better watch out.

you know PALEA is not just fighting for their jobs. if people can only see what it means to the whole system. if this plan would continue (obviously it will) it just shows that we, the common workers, will no longer have the rights and privileges of a regular employee, it includes a good take home pay. more than that pay, it will just simply mean that the dignity of a common worker is lessened since he/ she can be fired after his/her contract expires. it's what we call security of job tenure. giving PAL this go signal is a big proof for all the companies that they can outsource everyone except for the top management for PAL is a national symbol wherein they can copy its acts. the government just saw the short- term effect of this plan, they haven't really seen the long- term effects, that includes a more unequal distribution of wealth in this very unequal country. is this the government we voted for or is this the government the rich people wants? just to remind the government, only 1% are class AB people. wake up!

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PNOY, economic sabotage is when you let people work under contracts wherein they can't receive the salary and benefits of a regular employee. what you have done is a way of giving the wealth of the nation to the powerful and greedy (just like you?) and letting the common people suffer the consequences of your actions. you are not the president of the republic, you are just the president of the rich. wake up before your plane crashes down.

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tomorrow is the day that they made. capitalism isn't bad but too much of it is bad. 09.30.11. after this day, your company will fall instead of rising back. pal mgnt, remember karma.

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remember 09.23.98? if not, remember 09.30.11. eff those capitalist people. blame em, together with this effin shit we call governement, for the unequal distribution of wealth. buti pa si erap he placed the company under receivership to save thousands of jobs.

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You can say that your under normal operation if you are operating ALL of your flights not by cancelling your other flights.

Snack Menu: Troubled Love Life

So we went to our friends/ classmates house earlier and talked about our love life. Damn, most of us got the, i think, most troublesome. We ended up with those quotes. Gutom lang yata e :))

Even Angles Have Their Wicked Schemes

"Tangina, nasan na ba yun?"

I'm not looking for Elisa but for my $100. At NAIA3 I lost part of my pocket money. I dunno who took it but..NVM.

The lesson that I learned is not to easily trust, especially giving em a whole big bunch of it, for they would let you down. Now, i'm taking back those trust coupons from a lot of people and letting 3 people keep their share. DAMN.

How can you call an angel an angel if they still can't turn away from their old wicked ways?

I just hope somebody had fun using it.

Uncelebrated

One weird thing about me: I don't celebrate my birthday. I don't even tell people my birthday. I hate it when someone would greet me twice. I don't know why. Until this day came.

Just this morning my mom and I had a little fight. Too little but it made me realize many things. It started because i didn't get all the socks yesterday. I just got mine. I know it was my bad but telling me all those words? Man, I know I'm stupid but I got feelings too. She even saw some wrongs things that I didn't do. The question that popped out of my mind was "Why does she terribly hates me? Is it because of the socks thing or she just fucking hates me?" I really dunno. I could accept the socks thing but those other things, nope.

I realized that she doesn't love me. She has been using that cliche for like 3 times in a day to me but wala pa din e. I guess that's the reason why I don't want to celebrate my birthday and just waiting for my death. Yeah, I would be happy to accept my death. I would be very glad if I would get hit by a truck before going back to this house. Why? Simple reason. I just want to die and let my mom feel that burden that I died hating her. Because of this, I wouldn't talk to her anymore. Even reaching out. Wala na e, saturated na ko. Sawang sawa na ko. Lagi na lang ganyan. I know that her simple words "Wag mo na ulitin yun" are meaningless for if I'd screw up again, she'd tell it all again. Plus, if I would die soon, tell my mom and family that I don't like them to neither arrange my funeral nor go to my wake. They can just simply give my body to med students and use it for studying. Ayoko ng plastikan sa kamatayan ko. Just tell them party for 3 days and 3 nights for the kid they hated since birth already died. I just wish them that the would carry the burden of me dying unhappy.

Breaking Point

Earlier I played Home, To See The Face of God and Breath of God. The three songs that can surely make me cry and yeah I did. I just needed to. Out of the blue, everything popped up. Even those things that I thought I have forgiven myself because I have dealt with em fairly and they're all years ago. But you can't hide that I guess. It will just pop up out of nowhere when you're feeling so low and making you want to kill yourself. While playing those three songs I was crying and asking for God to take me away from this place. Why? Because I know I did so many wrong things, I failed so many people, I did not only let myself down but also those people who believe in me and I felt useless and just a waste of space. Until now, I still wish that He would call me home tonight. That's the place where I'm safe from all the things that I did and haunts me. I know I shouldn't escape these things but you can't blame me. I thought dealing those things that way would ease everything and would put the pieces into their proper place but it didn't happen. Instead, I was like a mirror. A mirror being shattered by my own self. Killing myself slowly with all those things that I did. Now, I guess I made peace with myself(at least) and ready to go. I'm ready to go to a journey where there would be no people who would pressure me to do this and that. No one who would tell me that I'm not good enough. There will be no people who would show me how to live this life but instead they will tell me to be who I am. I know that place is home and I know that I'm at my house but not at home. I just want to back to my home. I'm ready. Let me go first, let those other people do the things they want to do because I already did my stuff and if I would continue, I might just get screwed up again and again. Please take me, I'm ready to go now and I guess the people around me wants me to go too. Not because they know the things I'm dealing with but because I hurt them. Sorry for those things guys. I just hope I can go back home tonight and never make you feel bad again.

Now, I dunno how to face tomorrow. I guess I just need some time to think on how to get back this shattered pieces back into place. I thought got them fixed so many times but I think those attempts were useless as for every attempt, I just break em more and more.

You Know I Must Have My Reasons

On this day, God wants you to know

... that all is well. What could you not accept, if you but knew that everything that happens, all events, past, present, and to come, are gently planned by One Whose only purpose is your good?

Well, everything happens for a reason but what if the reason isn't justifiable enough to justify the cause?

These past few weeks, we've been bombarded with a lot of things. I did something that I wasn't supposed to do and its consequences are starting to unfold. I know and I will take all the blame for the bad things it has caused. What's hard here is that they neither show it nor imply though I can feel it. I feel really bad for what I've done. That's the reason why I commonly post "/wrist" posts. I just want to die or to escape this but I know escaping, especially dying isn't the best way to stop this problem. But getting the message above, it gave me a ray of light. I know that everything will be alright though it this situation shows that it won't be soon.

GV

Everything’s turning to be fine today. I didn’t expect that this day would be this nice. Well, everything happens for a reason I guess.

Last night I posted that you can put the blame on me. Right? Well, this thing created something. I dunno if we have to believe and hold it as the truth but we can’t let this thing pass as this might be real. I guess, we gotta be vigilant. Whatever happens, whether good or bad, I’m still taking the blame. Now, I’m ready to die for I know I have done everything in a way that I want.

P.S.

This message sounded like a goodbye letter. Am I going to die soon? I dunno but the only thing that I know is that I’m feeling better now than yesterday. GV all the way. Lemme die right now, lemme die happy.

Blame Me

I know it's hard to admit our mistakes but I gotta do it. I admit that everything started with me. I shouldn't have said that. Now you can put the blame on me. I won't get angry if you hit me on the face. I will let you say bad words about me. I deserve it. It's nothing compared on what I did and what are the consequences of my action. I'm sorry for what I did and its effects.

Am I Better Off Dead or Am I Better Off a Quitter?

In most relationships, men are said to be the ones who commit mistakes. HELL. we're not just the ones who make, you ladies to do but why do we all get the blame? It's like for every heartbreak, you'd put the blame on us, can't you hear our side?

Even from the start of a relationshit, oh, I mean relationship, we are the ones who have a hard time. Why? Do you think it's easy to tell someone you like/ love em at the expense of your friendship? Man, that's very hard. Imma give myself as an example. I've liked this girl for 3 years now but I can't tell her that I love her. I know that she already knows that but I just can't tell her since I'm too scared of not only failure but it might give an end to our friendship. See what I mean? It's not "ka-torpehan" that really stops us from telling you but the fear of losing you even as a friend. Moreover, some girls create walls instead of bridges. I just dunno why do they even bother. Can't you just tell it straight to our face that you don't like us instead of slowly implying it and killing us with your smokin' good looks and smile?

Well, I already laid my cards here. It's just the girls who feel sorry in a relationshit, oh relationship, sorry again, but us too. Even from the start. It's hard to feel rejected by the person you love so slowly and trying to imply it on you. Ladies, that's the ugly truth. Goodnight!

Who? What? Me?

I'll take character over reputation...your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.

I think most of you just heard or read this quote when AJ Perez died last April 17. Actually, AJ wasn't the one who said it. It was Drake, a singer he adored. Enough for the intro I guess and let's get down to business. What would you take, character or reputation?

We may say that both words mean the same thing but it isn't. Putting it down into simpler terms, reputation is what you see based from what others think or what the society implies on a certain person or thing while character is what really makes up a person or thing. For me, I's take character. I know that reputation is sort of important in our society but I just want to know a person based on his character. Let's take a politician as our example(classic right?) He may have a good image but a trash character. But we know for a fact that it just doesn't happen in politics but also in our daily personal lives. Just like in our favorite topic, LOVE. Most people fall in love not because of the character but because of his reputation. They say that they love the person for who he is but man we gotta admit that it is a big lie or at least a mistake. They just tend to see the superficial. They commonly associate reputation with character. Yeah, their interrelated but in just a little way. Let's see here the movie "A Walk To Remember." Landon is branded as the black sheep of his school. He's into every trouble that is possible and thinkable. On the contrary, Jamie is known to be the kid who can't break a plate. Yeah she was indeed nice. She was the pastor's daughter and everyone loves her. But how did she fell in love with Landon? Simple. She scrapped everything that is superficial and let a ray of light penetrate her mind and heart and see what's inside of Landon's heart. She saw there pureness, truth and love. Tho most people, including her father, was not at ease with their relationship, Landon proved em wrong. He tried and did his best to change their perception. In the end, Jamie died. Just kidding but yeah she died but the ending I'm talking here is that Landon was perceived as good here. So what's my point? When you love someone, you just gotta give em a fighting chance or at least a chance. You should not just lean on what people think about em but let that ray of light penetrate your mind and heart and scrape all those ugly things people have tagged that person and see what's inside that person. I'm telling you, even the worst person has something good hidden in his heart. It's just that there's no one who appreciate it so he lets the dark side win. Maybe you can be the one to let that darkness fall and let goodness win? :)

The Kid's Gotta Be A Kid Too

I can't understand those moms and pops who would let their kid use gadgets, make- ups and teenage stuffs at an early age. Don't get me wrong but a kid's gotta be a kid.

While on our way to SM, my mom told me that my niece has her own dslr now. She's just 11 and I'm 18, turning 19. I dunno why her parents let her have that. Don't get me wrong but it's not worth it. She's a grade 6 student from a good-for-nothing school here in our village. They just rent a house down the street. They bought a brand new dslr. Awkward right? Can't they just enroll her into a better school or at least buy a house?

My other niece is also not an exception. The kid's just 7 and she's wearing high- heels(am i right with the term/spelling?) and make- up.

I just wonder what these kids would do when they reach the age of 15. PMS perhaps? Damn. You can't blame em if they do that. You raised em in such a way that they would feel that they're already in their teenage years but still not reaching it.

Hey Daydreamurrrrr

I think you guys know this song very much. Here's Somedaydream's Hey Daydreamer. Imma post something worth reading soon. Btw, I don't own the song.

Oh i could just pretend to be with you all day

Remember the feeling when we first held hands today

Imagine you in my favorite white dress

Smiling at me as if you think that I’m the best

You tell me You and me, sitting on a tree,

K-I-S-S-I-N-G. I tell you

Baby hear me out will you marry me tonight

We're in this make believe reality

And baby it's just you and me

Coz when tonight I hold you tight

I wonder if this fantasy is right

Coz when reality comes to play

I realize I couldn't make you stay

Hey Daydreamer

I gotta be prepared to leave you in my fantasy

Coz when it's over, I gotta make sure

that it's you who'll be with me

Oh I could be your soldier, your knight in shining armor

I'm sure I wanna make you feel how much I love you

And I wish to God that you can see the world in my eyes

So you can realize that you’re the girl in my mind

And I don't mind if I don't make it out alive

Coz I knew right from the start that you’re such a boy killer

(I'm dying, I'm dying~yeah)

Coz when tonight I hold you tight

I wonder if this fantasy is right

Coz when reality comes to play

I realize I couldn't make you stay

Hey Daydreamer

I gotta be prepared to leave you in your fantasy

Coz when it's over, I gotta make sure

that it's you who'll be with me

And I couldn't believe I’m dreaming

I couldn't believe I’m leaving this world

For one with more fantasy, just you and me

So that tonight we both can finally be